this poem was for my parents.. it was the last time i got
kicked out, not this one. anyways, i really like this one
actually.. so i'm putting it in here.

***

I close my eyes
And hide myself from
Your other side.
I don't want to understand
The way you are
The distance between us
Stretches too far.
The hurt you cause
There is no rhyme or reason
No stopping
Or pause.
There are no rules
None you choose to follow.
You always make a pathetic excuse
In your mind
I have no use.
I play the fool
In your twisted fairy tale
You've barred me inside your game
Locked me in this
Imaginary jail.
I'm not good enough.
It's all because
I'm not good enough.
I don't do anything right
It's all my fault
I caused all those fights.
And all those horrible things
You say about me
I deserve them all.
Because I'm the worthless one
Too stupid to see.
I don't know how to be
The perfect daughter.
Tell me what you want
Show me what you want to flaunt.
I'm the root
Of all you're problems.
You say the only way to solve them
Is to send me away
And you say that I should pay
For all the things I've done to you.
You're spotless image
I've burned through.
You tell me I haven't got a clue.
And you wonder why
I spend all my time
Alone in my room.
You wonder why
I don't go out.
You say all I do
Is sit and pout.
You wonder why
I hate what I am.
When you say to me everyday
I'm the one thing in life
That you just cannot stand.
You wonder why I don't tell you
Anything
When you never listen
And say it's only grief
That I bring.
You say these are only pin pricks
But these pin pricks they sting.
You hide me
Your shame.
And I have no song left to sing.
Late at night I lay and cry
I wish I could figure out
The reason
Why.
Why you hate me so much.
Why there's this grudge you clutch.
I don't know what I did
Why I couldn't be the perfect kid.
But this is how I am
And to that I'll always stand true.
I've found another window
And through it; a more promising view.

Michelle.