why do i let you
make me cry.
why does it always feel
like im the stupid one
why dont i jsut
give it up already.
i dont WANT to care
i didnt ask to
we always end up here
screaming
yelling
picking apart each
others lives
and it isnt what
i want!!!
i want you, to be there.
why is it that
i ruin everything
i cant be right
no matter what i say
i dont hide shit
anymore
and you all freak out
im so alone
its like being
naked on a  dance floor...
fuck. if i only knew
i would TELL YOU
but i dont
i dont know
i dont know how to know
i try, i am trying
im pleading with you
inside it's like im dying
becuase i want to
have all the answers
i dont want to let
you make me cry.
i dont want
to be the stupid one...

xox
Ellie J
misfit madness, everyday... all day!