A Boy.

why do i let you make me cry. why does it always feel like im the stupid one why dont i jsut give it up already. i dont WANT to care i didnt ask to we always end up here screaming yelling picking apart each others lives and it isnt what i want!!! i want you, to be there. why is it that i ruin everything i cant be right no matter what i say i dont hide shit anymore and you all freak out im so alone its like being naked on a dance floor... fuck. if i only knew i would TELL YOU but i dont i dont know i dont know how to know i try, i am trying im pleading with you inside it's like im dying becuase i want to have all the answers i dont want to let you make me cry. i dont want to be the stupid one... xox Ellie J misfit madness, everyday... all day!