Confusion...

What can you do when you just cannot feel, A numbness set in, a wound that won't heal, Nothing can change the things that were said, Things that will stay with me until i am dead. I lost everthing that i once treasured so dear, The meaning, the memories, now all so unclear. I wanted an end, an escape, or release, But i'm staring into a void, the pain won't cease. Shock revelations that cut to the bone, Yet the cause of this shock to me is unknown. I don't know what i want, confusion is strong, I just guess i wanted to find somewhere i belong. Conflicting emotions are tearing me apart, I thought it was the end, turns out its just the start...