Once A Feeling...

sitting and reading the texts you once sent, the ones i shall keep coz of what they once meant. the 'i love you's' were special, each and every time you said it to me, it still makes my face shine to think you once meant it, just saying it to me made me feel so special, like i was wanted you see. but i know things have changed, i just don't want to accept that you don't feel the same, so the memories i've kept. see, you were my first and only rue love, the one i fell for, i doubt you'll ever see this and likewise nor will you realise just exactly what my feelings for you are, because i bottle them up inside with perhaps just a scar to show my heart is breaking with each thought i have of you, joping against all hope that each of my dreams may just come true. but i'm a fool to feel this way, i guess i should move on, after all, it's no use living in the past, coz the present may have gone. before you blink your eyes, the end is drawing near, but when i was with you my love, i did not feel any fear. wish that i could tell you just exactly how i feel, wish that i could have kept you as my own, now that would be ideal. but its selfish to want what you cannot have, and life it does keep going. you were my future, all i wanted was you, now all there is is my heart longing and aching for you because it misses your touch and your kiss and your smiles and this such. i'll love you for always, be with you forever whether you want me or not. i just wish we were together...