Nights of Reality

The soft notes are floating Hearing voices through the floor Lyrics playing in my head A song I've heard many times before Sleep will not come to me Endlessly my thoughts speak Shadows dance upon my wall Moonlight falls across my cheek Song after song whispers to me Between the valleys of my thoughts I've escaped reality for a moment And I think... Then again, maybe not Every smile that reaches my lips More welcome than the sun Laughter and carefree moments Thinking of my only one Gut-wrenching screams invade Glass glances before my eyes Again I cringe beneath the blanket And hide under it for dear life Friendly eyes flash before mine A familiar voice hugs me lovingly Slowly I remove my shield Have I reached insanity? Two lives I have led One lost in the past A piece of me longs for it But do I really want it back? It may seem a different night But thoughts are the same We bickered and we lost Like it was a wordless game And the entirety of the boy I love Never once left my head For while these flashbacks appear He watches, nothing said But he protects me still Though physically he's far "You know I'm always here for you And you know I love you, Kar." The memories battle relentlessly Every evening they're all watching me And now I'd like to welcome you To my nights of reality © KLLK 2005 *Author's Note: I think this is one of the poems that describes my life's turmoil the best, as I've experienced this nearly every night since I was seven years old.*