where am i supposed to go from here?
there are no answers, and yet i still feel no fear.
am i really not normal?
without the intention, i know i dug this hole.
just when everything looked so bright..
you think this was my long term goal?

it's all over now.
this is the official end.
i've severed all my ties; it's a growing trend.
i wish you could tell i loved you,
i wish you could see i need help;
because these days the feeling of dying
is the best i've ever felt.

i wish you could see that i'm so confused.
i'm constantly feeling like i'm destined to lose.
i want to fix this
i want to make things right
i want to be able to sleep through a whole night.
i don't want to feel so guilty
i don't want to be the cause of every single fight.
you used to tell me you wished i was dead
these days i just might.

i don't care about me anymore
i hate to see you cry.
i'm always asking myself so many stupid questions
and there's no answers to why.
i know that i'm the problem
and i cause you all so much grief
but don't worry anymore;
my tine left to live will probably only be brief.

i know there's no use,
but i still ask why
because every second i'm awake
i wish so badly to die.

love michelle.