Nothing To Gain.

By .xx:+.Disposable.Darling.+:xx. •
things always change
that's the way it is.
different from how i thought
and i've lost all will to live.
i have nothing left to give.
i've lost my place
my former motivation.
you suck me dry;
convince me to cancel
all future reservations.
still i feel the burning pain
but i think about it
and there really is nothing to gain.
the more i think about it
in the midst of all this change
everything stays exactly the same.
and there really never was
anything to gain.
nothing but shame
and more saddness;
feeding the monster
contributing to my maddness.
life is a fucking joke.
love michelle.