flickering in the light
a heart candle burns.
the scent of salty tears and suicide
fill the room
and i find myself caught up
in the moment.
time is of the essence
i've fallen down this hole;
i don't want to be found.
right now there's no way up
and one way down.

i didn't want to drown
now giving way to the current.
and stopping the struggle
it feels so much better.
it doesn't have to be right
or have best interests in mind.
i'm just a silly little girl
as i am sure you will soon find.

after being wined and dined
to perfection.
i'd forgotten;
in your arms and eyes
no recollection of past deceptions.
dancing around the warning
pushing away the thoughts
of you having left my side
before morning.

you don't understand
you've never been left standing.
you've always been the one
commanding.
stop fucking with my head.
get AWAY.
i'm not the only one
who would find pleasure
in witnessing your death.

dragging the glass
the breaking skin.
feeling the edge sinking in.
just to see the blood
watch it pulsing from my veins.
a feeling of release
the gentle trickle bringing
peace of mind.

discustingly grotesque
blooms the flower you hold
taking back my death.
running down a corridor
of empty rooms and locked doors.
trapped i just can't leave.
pressing me against the wall
hands tied above my head.
you become my master
and i can't stand the sounds
of your laughter.

love michelle.