counter-acting
inside whatever's lacking.
anti-social
it would seem i'm not normal.
stone cold and emotionless
you suck it out
until there's nothing left.

are you eating less?
or barfing more?
did you think being thinner
would make you less of a whore?

always rough around the edges
but i could never abandon you
please don't treat this as a game.
tomorrow don't forget my name.

reaching out
an open body cavity.
i had to surgically remove my heart
against all my better instincts
you assured me it would be
better off with you.

so i drew you a picture
and painted it black.
i scratched out the face
and left the heart with it's crack.

you took it in haste
as if i'd given you a precious gem.
you tucked it away hidden
in a place unknown
to the rest of them.

hair dye and make-up.
the blackest of black.
waiting for you to stab me in the back.
white it out
scream and shout.

you always make time for me
i don't understand.
you say you see me in your face
we're nothing alike.
but we have this great need to win,

the music is getting faster
and faster now.
playing over and over now.
believe in me
my disposable darling.
take me back
let's replay the starting.

love michelle.