sorry.
these "magic" words have lost effect.
why could you not have
realized before?
before you crushed my heart
into a fine paste of broken-ness?
why did you have to act that way?
think of all the most perfect things
to do and say?

how can you not see
why i like you?
how could you fake feelings
so untrue?
i'm "sorry" for my inconvience
but i didn't pull you into my arms
you did that yourself.
i didn't kiss you before
you brought your lips to mine
i assumed that it was a good time
i thought that it would all be fine.

i changed my mind
if i could erase thursday
i would.
if i could cut you out
you know i would.
so i could erase the throbbing
pain inside.
but i can't so never-fucking-mind.

why i'm the girl
only good for one night
is beyond me.
why i can't be seen in the long term
i can't quite see.
you say
you can't put your finger on it either
but that really isn't it.
you don't want to hurt
my feelings.
well you've killed them
you fucking piece of shit.

you'll never see me cry
you'll never see me die.
you'll never understand
you just CAN'T SEE.

you don't get it
if you liked her so much
why did you grab MY arm?
why did you pull ME in?
why did your attraction to ME win?
why did you suddenly cease
to care?
why did we barely come up
for a fucking gasp of air?
why did you just leave her there
for me?
i didn't ask you to
YOU decided for yourself.

how come you lied?
why did you have to lie?
why do you say i've not been used?
how could you let me make you
so confused?
and then just fucking rip it away?
why do you have NOTHING
else to say?

what went through your head?
it wasn't just me you fooled
you know.
everyone thought you'd give me a go.

ALL I WANTED
was to help you out
i knew your broken heart
all too well.
the similarities between us
were odd.
i'd never met someone like you
it was like a message from god
the one i never believed in.
showing me i wasn't alone
so i didn't try to hide
i opened my heart up wide.
you seemed to want in
but you just dropped me
in the fucking recycling bin.

i don't know what to say
but i guess you're the same
and you as well
just like to play.
why the fuck does this always
have to happen?
you made a dream; reality
committing infedelity.

why is she so much better?
why do i care?
because it's NOT FAIR.
the tears you cause
you NEVER stopped to fucking pause.
or consider the hurt
no amount of SORRIES
will ever take away
how you treated me like
fucking DIRT.

i thought you were different
the first diffence
in a while
that i have ever found.
i felt lucky
you were even around.
now you've pushed my head and heart underwater
and i've drowned.

i'll always remember you
the flawless one i found at last
and anything wrong
i loved.
but i guess my dreams
decieved me.
i just want to fucking hate you.
i want you to make me numb.
but this will always be my curse
and i'll always be
this FUCKING DUMB.

love michelle.