Taking Back Thursday.

sorry. these "magic" words have lost effect. why could you not have realized before? before you crushed my heart into a fine paste of broken-ness? why did you have to act that way? think of all the most perfect things to do and say? how can you not see why i like you? how could you fake feelings so untrue? i'm "sorry" for my inconvience but i didn't pull you into my arms you did that yourself. i didn't kiss you before you brought your lips to mine i assumed that it was a good time i thought that it would all be fine. i changed my mind if i could erase thursday i would. if i could cut you out you know i would. so i could erase the throbbing pain inside. but i can't so never-fucking-mind. why i'm the girl only good for one night is beyond me. why i can't be seen in the long term i can't quite see. you say you can't put your finger on it either but that really isn't it. you don't want to hurt my feelings. well you've killed them you fucking piece of shit. you'll never see me cry you'll never see me die. you'll never understand you just CAN'T SEE. you don't get it if you liked her so much why did you grab MY arm? why did you pull ME in? why did your attraction to ME win? why did you suddenly cease to care? why did we barely come up for a fucking gasp of air? why did you just leave her there for me? i didn't ask you to YOU decided for yourself. how come you lied? why did you have to lie? why do you say i've not been used? how could you let me make you so confused? and then just fucking rip it away? why do you have NOTHING else to say? what went through your head? it wasn't just me you fooled you know. everyone thought you'd give me a go. ALL I WANTED was to help you out i knew your broken heart all too well. the similarities between us were odd. i'd never met someone like you it was like a message from god the one i never believed in. showing me i wasn't alone so i didn't try to hide i opened my heart up wide. you seemed to want in but you just dropped me in the fucking recycling bin. i don't know what to say but i guess you're the same and you as well just like to play. why the fuck does this always have to happen? you made a dream; reality committing infedelity. why is she so much better? why do i care? because it's NOT FAIR. the tears you cause you NEVER stopped to fucking pause. or consider the hurt no amount of SORRIES will ever take away how you treated me like fucking DIRT. i thought you were different the first diffence in a while that i have ever found. i felt lucky you were even around. now you've pushed my head and heart underwater and i've drowned. i'll always remember you the flawless one i found at last and anything wrong i loved. but i guess my dreams decieved me. i just want to fucking hate you. i want you to make me numb. but this will always be my curse and i'll always be this FUCKING DUMB. love michelle.