Absent-Minded.

i wonder why we think everything matters so much it will all be lost in time in the end something else down the line takes its place. they'll just be another face lost and wiped from your memory much the same way you condemn me today. and how you're so unbelievable the appropriate words don't come to mind so i don't say. i just lay low i just let it go and let it slip as irritating as it felt it's pointless to react when they feel nothing why waste time? thinking it could mean something. but it's nice to dream and it's hard to wish if only because when i look inside you i see the cold and i regret how you could never be something i could hold for very long. i'm just another pawn on the board another hostage looking over the edge holding onto my regrets waiting to let them go wondering and hoping you don't know. emotion is something i hate to show. just look at me now screaming so far away to something so long ago. i'm so different now while feeling exactly the same it's so pathetic and i have no excuse i can't justify the use of all the lies or all the times i cried everything based on feelings you would never understand. either take me away with you or take my life because the comfort of this knife has left and created such a mess. all i want is for you to take my hand and leave behind the pain and distress. love michelle.