i wonder why we think
everything matters so much
it will all be lost in time
in the end
something else down the line
takes its place.
they'll just be another face
lost and wiped from your memory
much the same way
you condemn me today.
and how you're so unbelievable
the appropriate words
don't come to mind
so i don't say.

i just lay low
i just let it go
and let it slip
as irritating as it felt
it's pointless to react
when they feel nothing
why waste time?
thinking it could mean something.

but it's nice to dream
and it's hard to wish
if only
because when i look inside you
i see the cold
and i regret
how you could never be something
i could hold for very long.
i'm just another pawn on the board
another hostage
looking over the edge
holding onto my regrets
waiting to let them go
wondering and hoping you
don't know.
emotion is something i hate to show.

just look at me now
screaming so far away
to something so long ago.
i'm so different now
while feeling exactly the same
it's so pathetic
and i have no excuse
i can't justify the use
of all the lies
or all the times i cried
everything based on feelings
you would never understand.

either take me away with you
or take my life
because the comfort of this knife
has left
and created such a mess.
all i want is for you to take
my hand
and leave behind
the pain and distress.

love michelle.