i see your shiney halo
you act as if you've let
all your sins go.
you mask the fear
your so afraid to show
you'd rather not see
the reaction
you'd rather just not know.

feel my gentle tears
lighting kissing my cheeks
completely terrified
unable to speak.
it's so hard not tell
the way i feel for you
all the reasons for my saddness
the ones i share
are so untrue.

you feel so stupid
so you just shut up.
because once again
you've fucked it all up.
it's all gone to hell
even a blind man
could easily tell.
come out of your shell
you know all to well
you're idiocy.

if you weren't trying so hard
to be something else
you'd find all you're problems
they might be helped.

remember nothing is
an accident
the way you are
is the way you're meant.
watch them form
the crimson gashes
as yours glass heart; so fragile
smashes.

the pieces are sharp
picking them up
leaves tiny bleeding marks.
the memories stretched with every piece
crying out in pain
wishing for the release.

your body shakes
as you try to fix mistakes
you never made.
stop blaming
and shaming yourself
sometimes it's better to give up
than to do something else.
sometimes there is nothing
you could have done
you just have to remember
all the fun
and all the good things
all the happiness
they used to bring.

sometimes you just can't help it
it's not your fault
this is how life dealt it.
always remember;
don't give yourself too much credit
you'll live to regret it.

love michelle.