I'm So Sorry.

i need you to know that its just too hard for me to be close to you or anyone. too many times has it gone so wrong. too many times has it been dragged out so long. i can't be anything with anyone and its not that i dont want to its just that after all ive gone through i just can't. all the lies that have been told its hard to tell whos the one that breaks the mold. so many times have i been used all i am in the end is a stupid girl, abused. and there are times when i wish i could tell you how i feel but i know whatever you told me back it wouldnt feel real. everything feels fake. you can't fix me i always break. im sorry for acting weird im sorry for all of my fears i cant break these walls down and i cant let you. im sorry no matter what i'll always feel like im being used. i wish you could see the real me. the girl everyone forgot. even me. shes just something that i can no longer be. but i just wanted you to know that its all my fault but i cant help that i trusted too much before and that i have been crushed so far into the floor. i can't be saved. im too far gone just leave me here i'll remember what you might have done. michelle.