Never....Never in my life have I felt so alone...So 
hopeless...Completely,and utterly...alone...

I have family...Friends...But that has no meaning to me 
anymore...Because noone will or can ever understand how I 
feel right now...Noone...I really AM alone,arn't I?

So,So alone...

In the past I liked being alone...Taking walks at 
night,finding peace withen the 4 walls of my room...Even 
in my mind,I was by myself...

Ironicly,I dont want to see anyone right now...In this 
state of utter hopelessness...Loanlyness...I wish to see 
no one...

I guess its just a feeling...Mood swing,maybe...But to 
ONLY feel this...Deprived of any other emotions...To be 
sitting here in the dark of my living room,with only my 
computer screen as a light source,and feel the total 
emptyness of abandonment...

And know I have been forgotten...Replaced...

This is the lowest I can get...I feel like I wouldent give 
any thought if I died right here,typing away my sorrows on 
this lifeless computer...Which I came to depend on as my 
link to the outside world...But really its just a 
inatament object,uncapable of love or kindness...
Which is something that I have not felt in a while...

I'm really pathetic...So weak and vulnerable...Unable to 
handle my own emotions...

I am useless...Painfully useless...

Its a wonder,how I live through each day as if it really 
mattered to me...To anyone...And still have this growing 
disease that is this feeling of loanlyness...

So,as I sign off...Tears staining my 
face,leaving the dried salt in there wake...
I have come to realize that I shall forever remane alone...
Stuck in this so-called "Life" I lead...

Goodnight to you all...

~*Lost*~