Alone

By ~*Lost*~ •
Never....Never in my life have I felt so alone...So
hopeless...Completely,and utterly...alone...
I have family...Friends...But that has no meaning to me
anymore...Because noone will or can ever understand how I
feel right now...Noone...I really AM alone,arn't I?
So,So alone...
In the past I liked being alone...Taking walks at
night,finding peace withen the 4 walls of my room...Even
in my mind,I was by myself...
Ironicly,I dont want to see anyone right now...In this
state of utter hopelessness...Loanlyness...I wish to see
no one...
I guess its just a feeling...Mood swing,maybe...But to
ONLY feel this...Deprived of any other emotions...To be
sitting here in the dark of my living room,with only my
computer screen as a light source,and feel the total
emptyness of abandonment...
And know I have been forgotten...Replaced...
This is the lowest I can get...I feel like I wouldent give
any thought if I died right here,typing away my sorrows on
this lifeless computer...Which I came to depend on as my
link to the outside world...But really its just a
inatament object,uncapable of love or kindness...
Which is something that I have not felt in a while...
I'm really pathetic...So weak and vulnerable...Unable to
handle my own emotions...
I am useless...Painfully useless...
Its a wonder,how I live through each day as if it really
mattered to me...To anyone...And still have this growing
disease that is this feeling of loanlyness...
So,as I sign off...Tears staining my
face,leaving the dried salt in there wake...
I have come to realize that I shall forever remane alone...
Stuck in this so-called "Life" I lead...
Goodnight to you all...
~*Lost*~