The Prisoner Inside My Heart

We spent one year apart before only few days together you're deep inside my heart and I think this will be forever It felt like on the first sight when I saw you coming the world was filling with light all I did was standing stunning I then did not believe that beauty like this did exist and that soon I would receive the greatest love there is Though we didn't even kiss you are the one I miss when I see people in love I wish for you to be around With you I don't need words I could just be forever and the times I drink or eat they unbelievable are never Us situated as two we don't need to talk but whenever we do you like to take me for a walk You don't take my hand but though I am just fine knowing in the end yours will look for mine That's when we're at the beach both lying in the sand from the distance you try to reach and finally you hold my hand We're both being cold you see my body shaking and as you're coming close I know you're not faking We hear each other sighing louder and deeper than ever together we are dying the day I forget this will come never I won't ever regret the night we spent back then though to remember sometimes hurts it's the best memory I have Then it came too quickly the last night we'd ever have you didn't even know the next day I was gonna go back As soon as you found out we had to face it together that is was a real big doubt the day I'd see you again would come ever All I could stare at was your face pale with big innocent eyes they let me see what you felt inside it was you who died I really didn't want to say Goodbye and when I think back I still sigh the whole night I did not know what to do would it have been right to just kiss you? I cried when I went home hating the fact was true that you stayed back alone and the whole dream of us was gone As time passed home in Germany I somehow found someone new who felt when I talked about you the thing that is called jealousy I don't know whether to be happy about it or not but things between him and me ended before back there I got So I was back there facing all the places where together we'd been that existed all clear in my memory You weren't with me so I missed you more and more the lonelyness around seemed endlessly and I started to feel unsure Not seeing you again I suddenly started to doubt that our love would be refound and happy we'd both turn out I got to know someone else and when I wasn't expecting it at all I suddenly stopped to fall as you stood there as if grabbing my hand I didn't believe my eyes neither did you seem to do when I saw you in between all those guys a big dream finally seemed to come true Again there is that feeling of not knowing what to do joy and excitement mixed my life was finally fixed As I walked over to you and saw you staring at me I knew you were the one I will always love the most Though there is a difference between our love and others it's as if ours was hidden maybe it is even forbidden It isn't there in fact but it does exist inside it is deeper and warmer and in my heart it's always kept So now I am back here situated all alone but I do know in there in my mind you're never gone Our love seems hopeless but I know if we believe the search won't be endless and we're gonna succeed We're going to end up together and then the two of us will stay forever but until then I hope you're ok with your part as the prisoner inside of my heart. ____________________________________________________ From Maren to Chris (September 4th '05)