Good-bye

I sit and stare at the wall, hoping no one sees. I think I'm going to loose it all, I feel like I'm not me. Sitting there alone, I feel as though I'm fake. Suddenly I hear a groan, and know I've made a mistake. When it is all over, I sit myself up straight. All the pain all over, I couldn't stand the ache. I grabbed behind my pillow, and took it in my hand. All I ever wanted, was for you to understand. I took a long, deep breath, as I held it under my finger. I felt a little closer to death, then I pulled the trigger. Starring at the wall, mommy please don't cry. I have lost it all, Good-bye.......