I'm Gonna

I'm gonna hold my head high so they won't see me cry, I'm gonna flash them a smile and walk quickly by, I'm gonna pretend not to hear there names for me, I'm gonna ignore there mocking and act like I don't see, I'm gonna fake that I'm fine so they won't suspest a thing, I'm goona hold back the tears while crying within, I'm gonna wait till I'm home and out of the rain, I'm gonna find a sewing needle and get rid of the pain, I'm gonna cut with the needle until the blood drips, I'm gonna listen to the clock till I can't hear it click, i'm gonna finish it later, yeah later tonight, I'm gonna use a knife instead 'cause I can no longer fight, I'm gonna write mum a letter and confess it all, I'm gonna tell her to be happy with her boyfriend Paul, I'm gonna say sorry for my death and ask her not to cry, I'm gonna tell her I love her then sign it goodbye, I'm gonna look at her from heaven till she meets me up there I'm gonna watch her and Paul and keep them in care, I'm gonna miss them and count the seconds we're apart, I'm gonna keep them forever locked in my heart.