slipping back!!

By pain never stops •
i can look a the scars now
and think back to the memories
but the memories lie deeper
deeper within
i dont want to feel that pain again
NO, not ever!!!
i cant go back!
the scars remain
the pain will never go away
the scars are just a constant reminder
please dont let me go back!
im slippin i can see that
im goin back and i dont want to
im crying for help
but no words are coming out
all i hear is silence
silence within!!
i want my smile back
even for just one day
im drownin in pain
in an empty black hole
im slippin, im fallin back
please help!!!
i havent cried for help
didnt think i needed to
im a bottler
but im cryin for help
can u hear me?
if u can help me!!