Independant

i am young but now im older inside my heart i am no longer weak i get lost and i can find the right path back. im out of the jungle now. i want to be self suffient how does it feel? i ask myself to not need them there i would give anything for a chance a chnage but i wouldn't give them you. and yet i push you away all of you. i am small inside i know it's true but im not in fear of what's out there. confident that i will always win in the face of challenge it's weird to feel this way. to not want you there to hold my hand. i dont need you to love me anymore. i love myself and that's all i was really looking for. how does it feel? but i dont want to be fading away... anymore. a picture losing colour fraying, wrinkling changing into somehting else happy times fading.. how did this come about? the world is big and i want to see it all i want to be alone and i want to stanbd tall. i know i can but i dont want to lose you to do it. xoxo Ellie J