i am young
but now im older
inside my heart
i am no longer weak
i get lost
and i can find the
right path back.

im out of
the jungle now.
i want to be
self suffient
how does it feel?
i ask myself
to not need them there
i would give
anything for a chance
a chnage
but i wouldn't give them you.

and yet i push you away
all of you.
i am small inside
i know it's true
but im not in fear
of what's out there.
confident that i
will always win 
in the face of challenge


it's weird to feel
this way. to not want
you there to hold my
hand. i dont need you
to love me anymore.
i love myself
and that's all i was
really looking for.

how does it feel?
but i dont want to
be fading away...
anymore. a picture losing colour
fraying, wrinkling
changing into
somehting else
happy times
fading..
how did this come about?

the world is big
and i want to see it all
i want to be alone
and i want to stanbd tall.
i know i can
but i dont want to lose you
to do it.


xoxo
Ellie J