Fade Away

fade away fade away into the walls melt and mould into someone new i dont know what im doing but i know im losing you. i push you away while i scream silently please please dont just fade away i hide i lied.. i try. i do. and now i push you away and i feel so rude but i try not to i try to be so loving i want to be but we've lsot it. fade away i've lost myself. not yet, i refuse i let go to a clutching memory forging my way into the bricks i want to meld and be one with them i want you to all just go away while i cry at night for you to all stay. i dont know what im doing but im fading away fast and there is nothing i can find to make myself last. xox Ellie J