fade away
fade away
into the walls
melt and mould into
someone new
i dont know what im doing
but i know
im losing you.

i push you away
while i scream silently
please
please dont just fade away
i hide
i lied..
i try.
i do.
and now
i push you away
and i feel so rude
but i try not to
i try to be so loving
i want to be
but we've lsot it.

fade away
i've lost myself.
not yet, i refuse
i let go
to a clutching memory
forging my way
into the bricks
i want to meld
and be one with them
i want you to all just go away
while i cry at night for 
you to all stay.

i dont know what im doing
but im fading away fast
and there is nothing i can find
to make myself last.


xox
Ellie J