I Refuse

The tears slide slowly down my face i turn around, realise your not there time to face reality time to realise you don't want me all this time, waiting for you to come back has to end i cannot waste years of my life waiting for you i cannot sit around being depressed i have a life i refuse to be like this, it has to stop make your mind up about what you want because i cannot go on like this any longer i am starting to make my own mind up even though i love you and breaking away rips my heart out i know i have to do it i refuse to do whatever you say and jump everytime the phone rings i am not going to do that anymore it's not fair on me all this while your out having fun i'm waiting for that phone call the phone call that i've dreamed about and them 3 words i hear from you you will never know how frustrating it is because you've never been in love if i could switch off my feelings for you i would i refuse to be lonely and not have a life just because you don't want me to i'm not a puppet on a string that you can just dangle when you feel like it i am a person and i have feelings you've broke my heart one too many times and that's why i'm breaking away now no more chances no more lies no more mind games no more using it's all gone now i refuse to be treated like that instead, i'm going to live my life and make my own decisions with or without you for ben Copyright Rebecca Waring