The tears slide slowly down my face
i turn around, realise your not there
time to face reality
time to realise you don't want me
all this time, waiting for you to come back
has to end
i cannot waste years of my life
waiting for you
i cannot sit around being depressed
i have a life
i refuse to be like this, it has to stop
make your mind up about what you want
because i cannot go on like this any longer
i am starting to make my own mind up
even though i love you
and breaking away rips my heart out
i know i have to do it
i refuse to do whatever you say
and jump everytime the phone rings
i am not going to do that anymore
it's not fair on me all this
while your out having fun
i'm waiting for that phone call
the phone call that i've dreamed about
and them 3 words i hear from you
you will never know how frustrating it is
because you've never been in love
if i could switch off my feelings for you
i would
i refuse to be lonely and not have a life
just because you don't want me to
i'm not a puppet on a string
that you can just dangle when you feel like it
i am a person
and i have feelings
you've broke my heart one too many times
and that's why i'm breaking away now
no more chances
no more lies
no more mind games
no more using
it's all gone now
i refuse to be treated like that
instead, i'm going to live my life
and make my own decisions
with or without you


for ben


Copyright Rebecca Waring