Self Discovery

i came up with this idea last night at my party tee hee. when i was all sick and spinny feeling and i looked into a mirror and it was like for that instant i was someone else, watching my thoughts and stuff... like if i was an oustider or something, and it made me realize just how hard latelly i have been trying to find *who* i am. becuase i dont know... and like i kinda think that once you turn 18/leave home you disappear from like, relaity until you hit like, 25 and it's like BAM suddenly you know, becuase you've spent the last bit trying to find yourself... i guess im just crazy, but thats what i feel it's like. Self Discovery. dive into the looking glass and from the inside look out. peer into my eyes from another side let my soul lead you. and if you can't step back for just an instant ponder this the outlook from within. the baren lands where my heart lays the icy wind blows while my childhood memories play crumple on the gravestone of time bitter my profile cries im running out infact it's alreayd to late im in the mirror and im in a somewhat impaired state. my mind gone numb my fingers lack the movement of what they had i draw up an illusion for you but i hide that still becuase it's closer to the truth than any lies i could sell. freelance and forlorne another day another year a piece of history my tragdey that no one hears the pain of tears stinging blackened skin burned by myself i let you in. too far fall now i do and if i can't have him i wont want you. in this land where everything is upside down and inside out confusion rains a constant doubt, wherein i lie the secrets that i hide half of them you will not find burries by the icy wind covered up with all my sins. forgive me as i do what it is i do to you. i know not where i am who i am or what i will be all i know is right now im tangled up in my heart my lost soul trying to reconnect myself with me. xoxo Ellie J passing through the doors of self discovery.