The Truth hurts more than lies

By Debz ~~ lost amoungst the pages of a story yet to be told ~~ •
You say you might not be able to trust me,
when i cant trust myself.
i dont want you to forgive me, i just want you to see,
ive changed since you first met me.
more than you'll ever know.
ive fallen in and out of love far too many times,
i just want to move on now.
Theres to much pain between us, we can never be the same,
You say you cant trust me,
then how can you say you love me?
Your always growing closer to me,
while i fall further away,
But believe me when i say i never wanted to stray.
The spark that i once felt has now all but gone.
I wish i felt it too i wanted you to be the one.
But now the months have passed ive learnt to live without you,
i'll never know the reason why im always out to hurt you,
I never promised i could stop because i know the truth,
I love you and i need you but my body doesn't want you.
I cant change who i am or how i really feel.
i just dont know what to do anymore