Mind Wanders

I sit here wondering how things have become i try and understand why i feel so numb when you think your getting somewhere it always only gets worse no matter what you say or do, that bubble is gonna burst it seems when you try, it gets thrown back in your face you just want to make ammends with people, the world would be a better place you try to be a better person, for yourself and those you know but it never gets appreciated, it's lowest of the low i sit here trying to make sense of it all, why is life so unkind? am i ever gonna find answers to that, or is all this just in my mind? it seems that when you reach the top, you only get dragged back down that feeling like you just can't win makes you feel like a circus clown everybody can laugh, giggle and have loads of fun but there's always one person sat in the distance who really just wants to run most of us don't notice her, we're enjoying ourselves too much but why, don't we stop and think sometimes, give her a mother's touch? the answers to my questions, i am never going to find because life is so cruel that it just messes with your mind i guess we gotta accept it, put on that smiley face i hope one day this all can change, the world would be a better place. Copyright Rebecca Waring