Ramblings Of A Heart

I would turned myself inside out well now that is what you said you would do as you painted such a lie to yourself as I laugh and said now come on you can do better than that so you said that you had enough love for me and you and this I just had to see, knowing deep down this was not true, for you see another had already had my heart but you just did not understand. Noone knew just how I really felt as I pasted that smile so well upon my face and seemed to all that I had no problem at all, for I can act like noone you have ever seen, although you knew right from the start that I was not in love with you, still you had to have me once and for all and I put you off for as long as I could for I did not want to marry you no not at all but I finally gave in for the one who had my heart did not want me after all and well who wants to alone. A hard lesson indeed to learn that it is better to be alone and happy than with someone and miserable, you said that you would make me sorry and I responed to late I already am! The shurade had started longer before the I do which really I did not and you knew it to but you also knew that I would treat you right for that is how I really am good to all no matter what. The longer I stayed the deader I felt inside, and yet I prayed that God would let me have feeling for you, and yet those feelings never came, I have done all I know to do to get the one who has my heart out of my system, but the truth is he is the one who got all the way in and you resent me for not saling out to you a man who never had my heart or no feelings from me at all. You still have a relationship with my kids and you are not even their Daddy yet they claim you as their Daddy, they would rather look at the good instead of the bad guess I taught them very well on how to really care for people and just think they have no ideal that you resent raising them. After I ended it all you finally admitted that you never done me right, how funny for you to admit knowing that I never loved you but I tried and you did not thinking that I would always be there no matter what but you were wrong for it is better to be alone and happy than to be with someone and miserable and you made me very unhappy and the truth is it is mostly my fault for I should have tried another time with the one who even still today has my heart, even though I was lead to believe that he did not want me. Truth is He did!!