to...an old friend

depression and saddness over take my life no one around me understanding what its like pity is the only thing i can feel for myself as depression carries me more to its depth trying to find something to cling onto trying to find anything to help me through drinking and drugs won't help me the people who i trust won't defend me being the perfect little girl just isn't worth it so sick of hearing that i can't quit taking the easy way out was the best solution without doubt until i heard you say what i dreaded hearing the feelings that i thought were disappearing giving me a shoulder to cry on when everyone else was gone telling me you loved me when i thought it would never be making me feel loved when i felt alone taking my heart and finally giving it a home why would you do this to someone as undeserving as me was there something in me no one else could see