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I lay awake at night thinking of ways I can end this horrible life. I lay awake at night thinkin about life and what went wrong, or maybe it was something wrong all along. I guess i was to young to realize. I cut myself to see how much it bleeds, to see if i'm alive if all this is true am i living this horrible life? It cannot be true. I cut myself to feel the pain mabe just one time i will move the razor just a little bit closer, just a little bit deeper. What would happen. what would be my fate? I hope it's heaven but what ever it is it would be better than this hell. ALS