Have You Ever?

Have you ever sat in your room and cried for a long period of time locking yourself in the doom slowly debating suicide? Have you ever slid the razor across your skin marvelling in the physical pain that takes the pain from within? Have you ever sat alone and wondered to yourself why lying down the reasons or just held your head to cry? Have you ever felt empty a pain you can not bear wanting to end it all but something kept you there? Have you ever felt seperated from everyone else? have you ever debated killing yourself? Have you ever watched the blood trickle from your veins wondering why things are like they are wanting to end the pain? Don't tell me you understand because in truth you really don't. I always try to talk, to get you to listen. Every time I try, you won't. You don't want to hear it you don't understand it frightens you that I want to take my life by my own hand. I don't blame you it scares me too.