Never Could Feel

if you follow every little ambition everything your soul mutters that makes you heart flutter you might end up on a dark and dank path you'd be lost and then what of it? but if you ignore oppotunity scratching at the windows and banging on the door if you succumb to yourself what of it? confusion, anger aggression, sorrow and wandering off the path. normal things i guess for which later in life we'll look back and laugh. can you make it there? can i meet you at the end and can you promise me more than a blank stare? if i followed you home would you still love me? what does this all mean im following a hope i thought i knew the final destination but the winds have changed the tide gone out. stranded, abandonned hopeless, without a doubt. im beautiful, can you see it? im making it im going to finish this im proving to you now i was never faking it. love me, oh. silent memories black and white short films of the good times the happiness and the bad times the music tells the story your love ... my pride and glory. but you walk a different path and i go my seperate way and i hope that this kiss will last me just another day see me through i'll make my way back if thats what you are waiting for me to do? fustration overcomes me and i scream at the mirror in rage why am i not good enough? i had everything and i gave you it i thought what was never real i imagined things i could never feel. you made me believe you saved me more than once. just with a gentile touch i loved you. was that too much? but, im off... sailing, the winds pick up hope regained i'll find my way again dont forget me i wont ever forget you, love. something i need to forget to do. fly across teh sky one more time make me fly, the angony one more last kiss goodbye. dearest friend, brother... here we part. xoxo Ellie J fallen off the face of the earth