It’s always one more day
to wait to hear your voice
It’s always from far away 
drowning in static and noise
Sometimes I’m drowning in a sea 
of  blanket remedies 
and all my tears too.
Sometimes I’m waking up 
and never going back to sleep in
all my fears
In all my fears
But despite the fear of it
I’m lifting my gaze to you...

Do you acknowledge my looks of plead
Do you feel the pain deep inside?
I cast my eyes to the sky
and give them to the
the Gods, hoping for salvation.
I was led to you 
through your siren song
Dancing through cities 
and my revelations
always now
my eyes jumping over 
to see what you're up to
and then running away from
your glance, hiding secrets 
in my soul...
Secrets you've already let out.

It’s always one more night 
to miss a dream
It’s always been a fight
tossing and turning
Sometimes I’m flying 
Through the wind 
I’m falling in a hole,
condemning my soul
But I’m raising my gaze to you...

I feel upon my cheeks 
the warmth from the radiant
expressions of the sun,
your expressions dance 
your smile is my leading light
I smile at the clouds that 
rain down on me and
try adn hold me back.
My face is drenched in the light 
and the drizzle from them runs off
but do you even see
the wet marks?
the burns and the holes...
i raise my gaze to you
i am pleading for guidance.

One more day I fall asunder
One more day to be carried under
One more day feels like forever
Over and over and over
One more night of insomnia
Another victim of mania
One more night feels like forever
Over and over and over

Sometimes I feel that
I’m grabbing at the air, 
course nothing’s really
there...
Sometimes I’m ripping 
ground in hopes 
that I’ll fall
down into the dark.
but then, i turn and look back
and i raise my hand to the light
And I’m giving my hand to you
I’m giving my hand to you,
won't you pull me out?

I bestow my hands 
to the grasp of the guiding
influence of true vocation
I summon destiny of liberation
My soul is dancing 
toward the place 
we found without any grace
I’m just caught up 
i've fallen in too deep, 
but I reach to you
im willing to jump...
i raise my gaze to you.
behind those hazel eyes
there's something more.
i've spent so long
drowning in them already
wont you recognize my pleas
i want your help out of here,
I’m giving my hand to you…

please, oh please
just set me free.

xoxo
Ellie J