Lovesong for James.

It’s always one more day to wait to hear your voice It’s always from far away drowning in static and noise Sometimes I’m drowning in a sea of blanket remedies and all my tears too. Sometimes I’m waking up and never going back to sleep in all my fears In all my fears But despite the fear of it I’m lifting my gaze to you... Do you acknowledge my looks of plead Do you feel the pain deep inside? I cast my eyes to the sky and give them to the the Gods, hoping for salvation. I was led to you through your siren song Dancing through cities and my revelations always now my eyes jumping over to see what you're up to and then running away from your glance, hiding secrets in my soul... Secrets you've already let out. It’s always one more night to miss a dream It’s always been a fight tossing and turning Sometimes I’m flying Through the wind I’m falling in a hole, condemning my soul But I’m raising my gaze to you... I feel upon my cheeks the warmth from the radiant expressions of the sun, your expressions dance your smile is my leading light I smile at the clouds that rain down on me and try adn hold me back. My face is drenched in the light and the drizzle from them runs off but do you even see the wet marks? the burns and the holes... i raise my gaze to you i am pleading for guidance. One more day I fall asunder One more day to be carried under One more day feels like forever Over and over and over One more night of insomnia Another victim of mania One more night feels like forever Over and over and over Sometimes I feel that I’m grabbing at the air, course nothing’s really there... Sometimes I’m ripping ground in hopes that I’ll fall down into the dark. but then, i turn and look back and i raise my hand to the light And I’m giving my hand to you I’m giving my hand to you, won't you pull me out? I bestow my hands to the grasp of the guiding influence of true vocation I summon destiny of liberation My soul is dancing toward the place we found without any grace I’m just caught up i've fallen in too deep, but I reach to you im willing to jump... i raise my gaze to you. behind those hazel eyes there's something more. i've spent so long drowning in them already wont you recognize my pleas i want your help out of here, I’m giving my hand to you… please, oh please just set me free. xoxo Ellie J