Cracked

staring away from my shattered heart the cracks are pulling me in closer daring me to look. making my eyes stare back in at the wonder, how a picture filled with such horror... looking down to seek relief, only to find two bloodstained wrists, oh how that did me in. and the cracks and crevices deep and red i wonder why it is so much tonight i've bled. i think of you and how you dont see me. i dont look the way i want me too i feel like crap of what i did to him and of her the things i've said. all the bad has built up and rushed forth from my head. the surge broke my heart and ripped my mind free suddenly i bleed and sigh in relief and yet the picture is not yet complete. xoxo Ellie J