An Old "Friend"..

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By .xx:+.Disposable.Darling.+:xx.

there's no place to go there's not many who know that it still goes on. not one that i can think of and i keep it to myself. i tried to push it away but it keeps falling off the shelf and in my lap. tempting is this box. i tried to keep it shut but it opens and spills memories and disgrace. ones i wish to be forever hidden and one day forgotten. ones i tried to erase. i wish they never were. but it's too late to wish now. there's no magic genie in this movie anyways. blood and tears it beckons me back here. i tried so hard but i find myself back in exactly the same place. my heart beating at exactly the same pace. the same motion and action the same feeling and comfort the same emptiness and i wonder why it still doesn't hurt. so numb and feeling strong. i couldn't have been more wrong. building up to the breakdown hearing the sickening sounds watching it spatter as it's hitting the ground. i didn't think i'd go back to you back to you, old friend. but i seems everytime you break into me i'm shown mercy and i mend. there's nothing like you nothing else really pulls me through; nothing. not like you do.

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October 14, 2005 18:01My_pain_your_thrill

I know this feeling all too well! And it's not nice. But as you probably know now, there are time when you dont need that old friend, when you are fine with human contact, and you can face the world, and face people smiling without feeling like a freak because you cant. They say once you begin to self harm, you'll never stop. i dont believe them. Its an adiction, but like drug and drink adictions, they can be broken. If you're strong, which you are. li xoxox

hey ... one word wow... very deep i can feel your pain and comfort at the same time.. i know exactly what you mean... bad habits are hard to break esp. when they are your escape....

December 31, 2006 20:18sk8t3R gal 4 eva

this was a great poem! you should publish it!