i hate the way

I hate the way, you look at me I know, that you would. I hate the way I hate you, cos I know, you is who should. You should hate me, oh yeah how could I forget, you already do, I don’t need to tell you to. Why say you love someone, when it isn’t true, you know, I’d fallen for you. You used me, and that’s what hurts the most, told me to keep it quiet, no need to boast. I don’t like being quiet; you know what im like, im a loud girl that rides a motorbike. It hurts to think we could’ve been, because it’s the good side of you I’ve seen, and when you said it I tried not to scream, felt like a dream and you didn’t seem to know how much you mean, to me. Said can I have a kiss, and why would I say no, you’d been eating garlic so I made you chew though. So once everyone was out the room, I turned to you sat next to me, and felt my whole world go boom, I touched your lips, with mine, and I had a real good time. We got tired quicker than the rest of them did, but I didn’t mind. Alice was the first to go, and we followed close behind. She was sick but we were setting up the room, while Jay cleared it up. You hugged me in the bedroom, while my brother was in the bathroom, it felt nice, and I liked you so much. We were told we were sleeping in my mum and dads room, and I looked at you with a grin on your face, my mind was floating higher than space, looking into your face. I got in bed, Alice did too, and I was lying next to you, on the floor. Alice was zonked, but surprisingly you weren’t, you chose to spend time with me, rather than with everyone else. Upstairs, just you, and me we were ok, jay, the only thing that gets in our way. God the pain you have left lingers on for longer than I thought, I am totally gone, I know I did wrong, but I don’t want to again, no matter how much I would enjoy it, having to keep it quiet might spoil it, and I don’t want to I just want to stay away from you. I hope that you understand I don’t wanna be used no more, cos it hurts too much, too much for me to cope, and now my string has turned into rope, im strong again I’ll be ok, just gotta forget about that day. © copyright, RYDER CB X