I love u I need u I want u so, but you don’t stay long
enough you turn around n go.
Sometimes I think hard enuf and I see your gorgeous face,
the pain you’ve caused tho I can’t erase. 
You look at me I look at you, I know how I feel, this is
true, but no matter how I much I love you cos we can never
be, because you love her you don’t love me…
If I love you hard enuf you might come back, but until then
we’ll break up, are you wondering who im going on about
yet? It’s the girl with the make-up, the cover up across
her face, that’s the girl you love, not me. 
The eye shadow covers bruises from arguments and the mascara
makes the stubbly eyelashes long, black ones. The brown hair
dye covers up the lightness of mine, the shade of brown you
hate…The clothes cover up my skin, the enclosure can
sometimes make me breath in and hold until I turn into
something like charlotte gold, the pretty one, prettier than
me, the one you liked before you liked “me”. This is not
me, it’s the boots department store, but you’ll see me
as I wash it off a bit more, the mascara will fade, the eye
shadow will blow away, and I will stand there
uncovered…for the very first time, you wont be in love
with the make-up, you love the girl behind the make-up, the
real me who loves you for being you, its not you who is
fake, its not you who wants to be a rake, im fat im ugly but
you don’t know, I cover it up with make up so you wil love
me so. The fat wil shed as I diet more, I wil wash away the
department store, my life will no longer be a mess you will
be in love with the girl who’s undressed.

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