can't turn back

sweet crimson gold which my skin can no longer hold trickles down my wrist and onto the floor as i close another door another chapter to my life the final book in all watching in awe as the sun starts to fall a sunset alone in the quiet light as i watch my soul take its flight leaving my body on the cold dead earth i'm finally in heaven able to show my worth crying parents and forgotten friends making mistakes so this pain will end but i was the smartest i ended it fast knowing it was over so this pain would not last and i can't help but wonder how could i do this because my friends and family i will forever miss the knife that ended my life so sad left gashes in my arm mocking a new fad the kids that cut say their sad and alone but still they can say that their hearts have a home following the fad with no true pain my heart had so much more to gain and i ended it all no idea how but i can't turn back no i can't turn back now