i dont want to stand up
and face my fears or fight
i want to lay down in
myself, and bleed away teh night.

i want to wake up in the morning
in a blissful peaceful dull
i want to feel nothing,
i want to leave this lull.

so im a freak, im a whore
i wont argue, or make a scene
i can deal with that
i know its the truth, you're not just being mean.

and if the cold
should wash over me
and i should cease to breathe
i hope you'll forget to see.

i dont want to be remembered
i want to fade away
all i want for this is
never to see another day.

you rise through me
and make me fear
everything that i am
and the people who are near.

i tried to fight you off
and that ended in pain
im giving up, you hear me?
i wont fight with you again.

i dont have the energy
and i dont have will,
just let me pass, please god please
let me, myself kill.

xoxo
Ellie J