submission

i dont want to stand up and face my fears or fight i want to lay down in myself, and bleed away teh night. i want to wake up in the morning in a blissful peaceful dull i want to feel nothing, i want to leave this lull. so im a freak, im a whore i wont argue, or make a scene i can deal with that i know its the truth, you're not just being mean. and if the cold should wash over me and i should cease to breathe i hope you'll forget to see. i dont want to be remembered i want to fade away all i want for this is never to see another day. you rise through me and make me fear everything that i am and the people who are near. i tried to fight you off and that ended in pain im giving up, you hear me? i wont fight with you again. i dont have the energy and i dont have will, just let me pass, please god please let me, myself kill. xoxo Ellie J