False Wisdom

she said "make it all worth while for you only live once keep up that smile and never frown for when you show your pain you bring other people down mask the emotions others do not want to see do what you need to be who you need to be" i believed every word never thought to question if only if only this had been a truthful lesson for on her death bed she reveresed all the things she had said "it is true you only live once but if you mask this pain you will drive yourself insane find a friend to cry on their shoulder for if you don't the pain won't end. do not hide the frown because in your own tears you will surely drown but help yourself now listen to these words for i do vow the happiest child in the world will always need to cry for you can not live without wanting to die a smile and a laugh are all well in good but once you will be sad as all people should so don't be crazy and cover your pain for it will haunt you in a never ending chain." and thats when i realized i led my life by a lie she took her last breath my false wisdom had died and for the first time in so many years i broke down and cried i let out all my tears my soul and my mind were empty of the pain i had held for so long my false wisdom had died along with my false hope and now i had crying as my new way to cope for it was no longer weak and i was no longer drowning in the tears that i finally let free i knew that i could for once just be me