I am

I am through with this game I am done with putting up with all this pain LET IT RAIN Wash me, make me clean again, set me free let me live, let me be me. I am alone, in a tiny box like an animal, encaged in a zoo im trapped and im screaming out for you you could help me if you wanted to but you stare, just like ur asleep LET ME RUN I am running, running away but turning round, once again to see all i have left is in pain i am not the only one in this position never realised you all hurt too because it was only me i turned to never let anyone else in because i didnt see the point, now i do i turn to you LET ME SCREAM I am screaming, my heart is too we're all crying because we miss you i am bleeding, the pain seeps through me the echo hitting the walls like my fist, that splips as i fall i sit on the floor and pray once more. Everyday i wake up and i look at the ceiling and pray that im dreaming LET ME CRY I am crying, just sitting here whining mumbling to myself because i have no one else we all feel alone sometimes but since you went, since you died..i've been alone as a kid they always said, once you've loved someone their never dead, but if thats true, where are you? LET ME MISS YOU I miss you, but i can hear you saying its gonna be ok but i pray for a better day i cant forget, the day was one i regret i never will see you again, not until i die i will return to your side, and we will smile down from the sky. I can hear you saying a get a grip but everytime i get up, i start to trip nothings gonna be the same, till you wake up. I PLEADED I pleaded you to wake up shaking and crying and holding my face felt like i needed space but when i got it i fell apart cos there was nothing left in my broken heart and thats when the anger starts I HATE NOW I hate life now, cos its so cruel one day your here, then you fall unexpected, expected, or planned death is hard, hard for those who you've left behind but to all people, i'll remind, you were great a second dad to me, and i thank you, with all my heart although we are so far apart, we dont have to be because i will think of you as you smile down on me watch me grow, watch me smile watch me as i walk those miles just dont leave and i'll be fine because your in this heart of mine its been repaired, i wont ever forget but i wont cry, its over, and your gone but i cant be guilty i've done nothing wrong IM GONNA BE STRONG Im strong, im here for anywhere who stands near dav n jack, anyone who really, truely, misses you i know i do. R.I.P M.N, missed by me, my love is always with you, in earth, as it is in heaven, never let it go, ever. The daughter you never had, Ryder xx copyright, RYDER CB X