hate.
hate is something that runs through my veins.
hate is what i wake up to,
what teaches me
and what slaps me in the face and calls me degenerate.
hate is green.
it watches through my black eyes.
it is the laughter i hear when i mess up
fall down
or fail to please someone.
hate is what has created my jail cell.
my handcuffs
and these chains that hold me down and beat me.
im near dead. 
all because of hate.
hate. my hate.
is a Devil's Advocate
it exists for the hell of being.
its a gunshot in the night.
a razorblade kiss.
a fatal passion.
my passion. my hate.
wont stop until the day the sun goes around the moon.
which is never.
hate.
hate is the buzzing of a meagre fly around my lamp.
hate is the dread i feel
when morning comes.
even hate is beginning to follow
in the footsteps of others;
its going to abandon me
all in due time.
my doomsday.
no;
my deathday.
one day soon.
i will just be
like a rock.
forever, not living
just being.
hate cannot break a rock.
but instead wear it down smooth.
perhaps im already a rock
not broken, just worn down.
over many years.
my rock. me. my hate.
hate for all things better
my life is hate.
no more sunshine. bye bye.
bye bye life.
down the drain.
on the ground.
trampled, spit on.
kicked. HARD.
no Samaritan to save me this time.
six feet under.
"safe" in my hole.
alone.
learning not to trust.
to be closed and on guard.
no more pain.
one day. someday.
i'll be free.
i will have my wings one day.
someday soon.
no more roses.
their petals wilted and turned to ROT.
just thorns, my love.
my cavern of thorns.
smile. they really love you.
see how they pierce your skin?
without warning.
they are really attached to you. 
me.
for good. until one day.
pmy prince comes and brings me
my sunshine once more.
wake me up.
Charming, save me from this.
poison apple.
i'm waiting.
i love you.