Forgot

sometimes people wish to forget the past and all things bad but for me i like to dwell on the sad. if i ever forgot what got me here today i think then inside i'd fade myself grey and then what's left but a colour of old, and since i dread that to pain i preciously hold. who i am is shaped by you by the silly things and stupid actions that you did and without you people i wonder if i would or could possibly be this cool today? cynical and jaded sometimes i believe i've already faded but i know that deep inside the yellow still glows. and i dont need drugs or boys and fast cars to bring this colour about becuase to me, yellow is my soul. i haven't sold her yet my friends and myself we sing and we shout and this brings the glow to my cheeks and stops the fear in my heart. im not saying im better becuase i haven't forgot im just saying that forgetting things may not be the best thought. xoxo Ellie J