I dont know why i do it
and i probably never will
I felt no pain at the moment
but now it is so real

I dont know when it ends
or if i really want it to
Im not sure when it began
all this seems impossible

It all goes numb inside my body
and I have no reasons in my mind
I think about nothing around me
as i cut myself one more time

Can i alone fix everything?
Do i just need some time
I want to leave my body temporarily
and come back in the right state of mind


It isnt normal or sain
It isnt the right thing to do
I cant feel a bit of pain
and i never want it to be through

Its all a secret, please dont tell
I am not ready for my end
I dont want anyone to know how i fail
As i do it again and again