This Is Too Much

I cant beleive he did that What makes us love someone we hate? tearing us apart piece by piece ill carry this burden forever i always wish i didnt I only wanted to hold him to feel his arms around me it put a curse apon you and him yet he knows now what hes done His burden is growing the hatred seeps through us all confusing and frustrating why cant i stop it? I hate him for what he done yet i love him for what he does how can anything survive in such a hostile environment our hearts intertwined can this really work? So much love is causing so much pain someone has to leave this is so weird im floating in this bubble with him being a needle going to burst, I cant beleive this happened and still its on our minds i cant beleive this is real someone wake me from this nightmare i want to change what happened the biggest mistakes of our lifes ending in disaster haunted by the past round our knees tugging and pulling whenever i feel happy its there again making me feel that pain in my chest swelling up till it explodes with those words the tears in my eyes never stop over him i cant escape this im stuck in the middle with nothing no one loves me like they two do yet its ruined and im the cause i wish i hadnt loved him at all.