Understand Me

can you understand me? the fear in ignorance the fear in knowledge is there no bliss? and here is what we are standing naked and cold i guess you already know that we end up dead and old. all that God send to us comes with a ribbon wovewn of blood and toil and here you see we'll just end up composting into soil. nothing makes it better nothing stops the fear the feeling of falling. nothing takes away the greif except your face. do you know whats to come? does it bother you am i insane? nobody seems to fear the death that is theirs and yet i want something more what the fuck is it im looking for? im so angry over nothing and i just feel like going to eternal sleep now and saying fuck it i WONT do it tomorrow. there is no tomorrow its a path of dead ends nothing is right dont you get it? can you understand me? xoxo Ellie J