Whispers at 1:28AM

I'm beginning to hate nights like this
Where I collapse on my bed and try to think
But it doesn't work....
I miss knowing what I wanted, and having some Idea of how to
get it
I miss what we used to have, before last summer, before
everything got complicated
I miss being a little kid, when boys had cooties and adults
could disregard anything you said since "Kids say
the darndest things."
Do they listen anymore, or do they just hear me? When they
listen and then stop talking, do they feel beaten or
overwhelmed? Am I that good? Or do they Just want
to ignore me, dismiss my beliefs like
they couldn't be changed, or
because I wouldn't understand
their "Right" answer....
And now I'm tired, after all that.
Perhaps now, at 1:35 AM, I'll be able to sleep....
Then again maybe not....
But we'll try......
zzz/ZZZ/zzz/ZZZ