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The eyes I remember so vividly that last other noon
They looked back at me calmly but yet hiding something
The way they shine reminds me of two small beautiful moon
The paleness almost buries the pupil and something

Something was held back that day
The eyes bore into mine searching quiet content
For a moment there was no day
I wish for once more time I’d spent

It was a connection a moment a sense of hopelessness
I felt myself fall and die before those eyes
In odd horror the eyes only watched comment-less
Nothing in my world compares to the size

Oh the all-knowing eyes!
The moved about but never left the focus
The conversation broken in sighs
I looked deep into the eyes and thus

I saw them look equally as deep into me
I wish I wonder what it would be like to see them again
I dream and ponder what they will me to be
I hope oh I pray they’ll laugh with me again

In recent days I find I avoid the searching
The deeply probing eyes that pierce me
They scream for hope plead for me to be
Something alas I havent been or do they?

All in all I've deserted my post my pledge
My disloyalty making me a marked man
The brand sizzles into my chest WHY WHY WHY?
I dont know such a lie says the all knowing eye

Broken falling to knees pleading forgiveness
Undeserving of my life I pledge allegiance
No more words letting life pull me somewhere
Time to suck up the facts stare into the eyes again

And I find it hard to really gather my thoughts
To pinpoint what it is that they do to my thoughts
But in the darkening nothingness of uncertain devotion
To all the friendships I have I wonder why I

Never looked to the sky just to ask why the eyes
But the vulture it lurks to pry out my soul
And im not really sure if i should beg it to or not
I think im out to sea again to see again if i die

And the rose pedal drifts slowly slowly turning
I pluck the rose to pieces silently screaming to me
Im not really sure if I know me or not or if anyone could
The stem dangles a headless corps in bloodstain red

I cant even ryhme the rythmn the water lulls
If ever i could express the feeling of bloody thorns
Id give up writing once and for all because i remember
And though i try i cant forget...

Although i might regret i dont think so and now
I wonder what could have happened if id died
The blackness this night shines in the eyes
It blasts its silence the pale blue soul i cant find