Agony

she wished she didnt doubt the existance of those held true she wished that she could believe could believe in you. but there she lays alone and broken her sobs shift the still night and yet still no one brings her any light. she paws across the dew soaked grass she pulls herself up and with a gasp looks towards your house and sees on the lights she holds her breath do you know she is out there? did you sense her on your lawn. no, embrace the silouhettes slowly take shape through tear blurred vision she turns her head in shame and stands up weak. she cries as she stumbles through the old corn feilds across the baren lands the snow begins to fall she doesn't seem to notice the only things she sees is you. she wants nothing more than to just hold you. she finds herself at a stream where she sits and gazes upon her own pale face. wipe your tears you foolish girl he doesnt know your name. across teh water she meets the eyes of no stranger he wanders over and holds her close. her heartbeat slows and her sobbing ceases. if only she knew his secret deep inside. if only she knew how he watches as she cried. he follows her with hopes that someday she'll turn and see just how much she really means to him and to me. but she would rather chase an empty goal. she's always falling inlove with strangers people who she doesnt even know. right here is someone who she knows through and through and whose love for her always ran true... and he holds her while she cries. inside he silently dies. he tried to tell her but she didn't listen. still she did as always and she led him on he knows she doesn't want him, she doesnt care at all but he cant help but hope someday she'll notice. the same as she feels for him he guesses. that if she waits by his side long enough someday, he'll turn to her and say the words she always wanted. but he can't and he never will say the words you want to hear. xoxo Ellie J