Got To Be Patient

Does patience ever pay off? not knowing if things ever get better, or easier instead, everyday feels the same trying to cope acting so happy, though it feels useless everytime i feel like that a voice in my head wills me "got to be patient" easier said than done though trying to make sense of things going over it a million times watching, waiting, wondering and tomorrow is another day another day of unhappiness another day feeling the same it comes back again "got to be patient" it seems totally pointless being patient, what will that achieve? and in the meantime i have to carry on with this torture the days pass me by waiting for the good things to erase all the bad it dosen't seem to work i sit there crying, my head in my hands that voice stops me and says "got to be patient" and everytime it gets me down that is what i hear it dosen't make things better but makes me curious i woke up this morning feeling the same stupid thoughts in my mind what good is going to happen today? absolutely nothing when will the good things come? will they come at all? how will i know when they do? and all of a sudden that familiar sound springs in my mind and makes me sit up and take notice once more "got to be patient" Copyright Rebecca Waring