suddenly you seem mute,
ive seen it all before,
i wish it would end today,
praying for you desperately,
time keeps moving, as i pace,
what could i say or do?
my heart tells me nothing
my mind refuses to work
i see you walk away,
remembering a day when i cared less
wishing id cared more
sadly i watch you go,
angrily i stare off,
whats the purpose here?
how can i keep up with this?
even know my legs buckle
my days seem to have no numbers
my mind now filled with delerium
my heart cries day and night
these people around me fall away
all who i knew go elsewhere
i fall to my knees in fervent prayer
renouncing sins screaming repentance
filled still, with emptiness,
my longing, guilting me, 
wasting, another day, 
antisocially, in a new way




The poem should be read fairly quickly with pauses at commas
and approriate places. Im thinking i might want to do
something a little more structured maybe.